Posted by jdawgswords in Uncategorized
August 27, 2015 at 6:15 am
Hey, I do understand being down and out, yet enjoying it more than the past…
Drop by https://kindredspirit23.wordpress.com and read the about me and a couple of posts. See what you think.
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August 26, 2015 at 10:40 pm
I know just how you feel! All I have is my stupid panaramic 46″ TV, my lousy $8,000 camera, $4,000 guitar, and I don’t like eating anyway! Just yesterday, there were so many choices in my fridge, that I became confused, and kicked the living Cheeses out of my fridge! It’s a little warpped but it still works, as long as you’re swallowing this balogna… (SHABOOM!)
I have a scaithingly brilliant idea! If you don’t mind walking to Canada, I have four T-Bones on the Barbie now. I’ve jumped Barbie’s T-Bones before and since I’m on disability, she only charged me $1.27 for 5 minutes of groping, cuz I usually fall asleep by then… Would you like to go dutch on a cab?
You don’t have to go to work. Obviously they aren’t paying you anything, or you’d have food… You should check the garbage bins behind restaurants. They throw out fish bones, hair folicles, nut shells, all kinds of gormet things like that there! Go to a ‘seeing eye dog’ convention, and steal their hamburgers! LOL
My friend: life’s what happens to us all while we’re busy making other plans… Better you should feel good or you’ll make my peuk! You’ll release harmful chemicals in your body, and ‘Toys R Us’ will package you as a chemistry set! You’ll give yourself a fart attack, and oh look! No spare defib. kit in your closet.
Look… I have this bag full of Ha Ha’s over at my site! Also, just delivered today (de-livered? That must be painful), I got a case of the screaming Me Me’s! Never open the crate or they’ll take everything you have! They’re very selfish: always screaming: ‘Me Me! Me Me! Mine! All mine!’ So come on over to my site, leave a goofy comment and forget your troubles!
The mind is a powerful thing… I live with someone who cries all day! She makes a case out of everything I say! Always trying to fight with me! Yet, I can still write funny blogs, and I’m truly happy! Why? Cuz it’s all in your head: all a matter of changing your perspctive… I don’t take life seriously because life isn’t serious to begin with. In the long run, you’ll always be OK… So come on over and piss your pants! I’m inviting you, as one bum to another :O)
August 28, 2015 at 3:08 pm
August 26, 2015 at 9:46 am
Good day Sir.
I live on the other side of the planet so I cannot offer advise to your situation pertaining to details.
‘Thumb up’ was on my blog visiting and she out of the blue on a post of my son playing the ukulele, titled ‘bringing on the happy’ kinda asked me to come over and cheer you up…
That took me back a bit to be fair, as randomly dropping into someone’s life to say a few words like ‘Awe come on cheer up old boy’ seems contrite on a drastic level.
Thumbs up’s thoughtfulness for other folks tugged me. Your words here tugged me.
I have been dry on my writing for sometime – struggling with various reality issues that have been real hard to get my head around. You know – the unfairness of certain things we face. I have not said as much to people on my blog but it was a matter of life and death(not mine but someone real close – who ARE now OK!) and the changes and ache that would create for my family. (Long story!)
Anyway… I have been kinda drowning. Drowning out the fear. The lost feeling…again. You know – the up and down? I bet you do only to well.
So rather than come comment here straight away I took that feeling in me the inspiration – and I wrote a post. It is a long one. I have veered away from long ones as I feel that often nobody bothers to read them so I tend now more to the short and sweet and easy to do… I kinda betrayed the privilege I have with the ability to formulate ideas and write them down- and always my main objective has been to – well – encourage folks when the going is tough.
Maybe Thumb saw something..I dont know. But I wrote again.
And so here I am to thank you for being YOU and sharing your authentic self with us all and giving that which you have to give to create the ripple through humanity.
We dont always see the effect we have on peoples lives, though sometimes we do.
Thank you for affecting mine yesterday – and reminding me of a few things (which I cant list completely, lets just say a few things I have been wrestling with clicked into place between Thumbs comment, listening here and writing my peace/piece)
Be well and be brave and courageous!
Here’s the post if you are interested – https://idiotwriting.wordpress.com/2015/08/26/freedom-2/
August 26, 2015 at 11:41 am
August 26, 2015 at 6:37 am
I don’t know what to say. It sounds hard…and I’ve been to some hard places. because I’m a problem solver I want to ask questions such as, are there clinics and case managers in your city? is there any kind of outreach service that will help you with transportation? Do you have credit cards that you can use to rent a car a few days at a time so you can get some food? Is there public transportation of any kind?
And who is helping you with your workman’s comp case…have you applied for long term disability, it’s always good to start an application even if you might go back to work, are there any short term residential programs you can enter that might help you to access services while your case is pending?
It looks to me like the situation has you worn down and frazzled…were I still running a program I would consider you an ideal candidate for a stay to prevent a serious depressive episode…
I don;t know if any of this is helpful…
But these are the questions I would ask myself in the same situation.
August 26, 2015 at 7:41 am
I live in a weird spot…it’s the country in the middle of the city…though it’s actually unincorporated. also Houston is the banker’s corner of the oil patch…public transportation stops about 5mi from my place…I have no credit card but if my bank card wasn’t overdraft I could rent from hertz…and could rent a car for about $145/wk…my injury was very minor and if I put a lawyer i’d probably owe him before i’d see any money (supposedly “the check’s in the mail”)…I don’t qualify for any disability since it’s job-related and I have been released for work now…no public assistance funds…I am very frazzed and since I do know that once I start punching the clock i’ll be fine…they hold me a week so in 2wk i’ll see a check; in a month i’ll be getting but on track…thx…
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August 27, 2015 at 9:21 am
I’m glad to hear it…San Francisco has a tattered but still functional public health system–It must be terrible to live in a place that makes it hard for people to recover from setbacks that are usually minor but can become serious in the absence of the services for which we pay taxes here…I hope you’re back on your feet soon and feeling less hopeless… 🙂
August 28, 2015 at 3:03 pm
thx…I am indeed doing quite well
August 29, 2015 at 3:21 am
Good…I’m glad you’re doing better.
August 26, 2015 at 5:47 am
Houston is a huge city, so there has to be something set up for people who don’t have transportation. You have to be 60 years old to qualify for Meals on Wheels, but there’s always a possibility that one of these places might deliver if you explain your situation:
“Some pantries deliver food to people whose disabilities or illnesses make it difficult for them to leave home.”
“Food Bank of Contra Costa and Solano is fighting hunger one mile at a time with the roll out of a new Kraft Mobile Pantry truck. The refrigerated vehicle will hit the road to bring a “farmers’- market-on-wheels” to underserved communities, expanding the reach of the food bank and delivering fresh fruit and vegetables. This truck is part of a nationwide fleet being rolled out by Kraft Foods Foundation (now known as Mondelēz International Foundation) and Feeding America… In addition to the truck delivered in Concord, Calif., the program is also being rolled out in Columbus, Ga.; Corpus Christi, Texas; Elmsford, N.Y.; Greely, Colo.; Houston, Texas; Milwaukee, Wis.; Newark, Del.; San Antonio, Texas; and Valdosta, Ga…”
August 26, 2015 at 7:50 am
baby, you’d be surprised at how strained the resources are in this big ole’ city!!! greed runs deep here…either you get it done or you do without…this truck thing sound cool but it’s the 1st I’ve heard of it (I love the ‘net!!!) public transportation stops about 5mi from here…taxis or nikes out here…I live in the middle of nowhere in harris county…great location when I got wheels…it’s getting better, I’ve been released for work and once I start punching the clock money will start flowing again…also, supposedly “the check’s in the mail”…
August 26, 2015 at 3:59 am
Jdawg, I have just said a prayer for you. Now I have eaten from food pantries and I think it is shameful the amount of perfectly good food that is thrown away. My son has worked at places where they threw away pallets full of food that weren’t perfect for the stores. Perfectly good food that others could eat. I thought about that while I was eating expired food from the food pantry. If not for the grace of God and my father I would be homeless. I pay him no rent. Life is precious and I am glad you are no longer on the inside. I never spent time in jail, but I spent time in a psychiatric ward for trying to kill myself. That experience taught me life is precious and to be happy for what I have. I have Bipolar Disorder among other things and am physically disabled too. My blog not only helps keep me sane, but I hope to help others. You are not whining you are stating how you feel. We all feel the need for human interaction and by blogging you can get that interaction and maybe even some helpful ideas. If you have nothing at all have you tried human services. They aren’t particularly helpful unless you have nothing and sometimes the churches help out with other things besides food.I hope you get your check soon and remember you are not alone. I just started to follow your blog. I know how hard being positive in this situation can be. I will keep you in my prayers. Peace and love ❤
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August 26, 2015 at 4:07 am
thx…i’m dealing with BP as well…I believe I was a shaken baby…not real sure…and know way to find out…but there’s a lot of crap all tangled up in the gray matter…anyway, I tend to rage when shit don’t work exactly right or when I feel slighted…thx for caring…I tried to kill myself and failed…that’s a really bad place to be…
August 26, 2015 at 5:06 am
I am glad you failed when you tried to kill yourself. Just as I am glad that I failed. I hope you and I will never be in that place again. Rage is hard. My son rages and it is hard to watch it and not be able to do anything. He used to bang his head as an infant. He would rock back and then bang his head coming forward. He had a mark there from that. Couldn’t stop him though. He has BP too. I care and will continue to pray for you and hope that you can achieve peace.
August 26, 2015 at 7:53 am
thx…life is a roller coaster but with BP and such it’s like we have problems with motion sickness so roller coasters are rough
August 26, 2015 at 11:53 am
Mood swings are rough. I can swing in a moments time and back again. I also have Borderline Personality Disorder. Rapid mood swings along with other problems. I am mentally in a not so bad place right now. I am afraid of the depression moreso than the mania. Depression for me equals suicide. Hope that it isn’t about to reappear. I have been stable 5 months, but I am noticing (takes me awhile to notice) that I am taking to my bed more and having problems with personal hygiene. I hate showering and washing clothes. I hope it is not coming back because I no longer have a psychiatric nurse to do my meds. They have to hire someone else. Never a good thing. I had a rapport with the one I had. I also have a new therapist. Too much change is not good for me and I have such trouble with meds. If this combo is stopping working I dread trying to find a new one. We will both be okay. It will just take time. Take care and I am no further away than an email. Address on my blog. Peace!
August 26, 2015 at 12:59 pm
thx…when i’m not leaving the house I often forego showering…just drop a comment on any of my posts…I do check
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August 25, 2015 at 8:58 pm
Hang in there, my friend. The mills of the machine grind slowly, but, you gave yourself all the motivation you’ll need, when you related how you felt about being free from incarceration…. And, as you can see by the response here, you are not alone….
Take care, & be well…. The one thing you can be sure of is that things will change; the trick is to be ready to take advantage of it when it happens….
Blessed be, brother…
gigoid, the dubious….
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August 25, 2015 at 9:12 pm
thx…just had to whine…
August 25, 2015 at 9:14 pm
No worries, mate…. we all do it now & then…. Blogging has kept me sane for four years now, for just that reason…. Helps in dealing with reality when the crap can come on on the screen….
August 25, 2015 at 9:28 pm
yep…you sure right
August 25, 2015 at 8:30 pm
My dear friend 🙂
Please hang-in there. There is nothing in life which stays permanently. Your situation would improve too. I would pray to God to help you out of your difficult time. And keep talking to us. You can write to me and I would be happy to hear about you and talk to you.
Please don’t be hard on yourself. There is always someone who is suffering more than you. It helps to keep a positive outlook and be grateful for whatever we have. You said that you are much better off out here. It’s being thankful for what you have right now. Such gratitude brings more happiness in our lives.
I wish you bliss, peace and light.
August 25, 2015 at 8:37 pm
Love and light ❤ ❤ ❤
August 25, 2015 at 8:27 pm
Aww 😦 Life is full of ups and downs. Don’t give up, things are going to get better for you.
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August 25, 2015 at 7:51 pm
Hi Jdawg… Life can be tough. It has knock me senseless sometimes. I’ve been there and felt I wouldn’t make it out. Lost everything I’ve owned. Cried day in night out…over and over Til I had no tears left. But, just when I think I couldn’t make it. Out the blue things started changing and looking more promising. God will not give you more than you can bear. Even though in the mist of it you might feel like you’re at your end. The truth is you’re never alone and your struggles will be your testimony and your crown once you get through it and you will get through it. One day at a time… Just focus on now and what’s in front of you. The rest will take care of it self.
Keep sharing 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕
It lightens the load💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕
August 25, 2015 at 7:55 pm
thx…yes whining does indeed help…must be human nature to want attention when we have life dramas…
August 25, 2015 at 8:00 pm
It’s not whining and it’s not drama. It’s therapeutic and it’s life. It’s reality and it will help others in similar shoes to know they are not alone. Sometimes all you can do is tell your peace and be heard. You’re worth being listen to and I hear you.
August 25, 2015 at 8:06 pm
awww…you’re a sweetheart…thx
August 25, 2015 at 8:01 pm
Jdawg! Whining? You funny!
August 25, 2015 at 8:05 pm
you don’t think so huh?
August 25, 2015 at 8:04 pm
well, they didn’t copy right…
August 25, 2015 at 7:32 pm
I’m sorry. It sounds like you are going through a difficult time. Hang in there. I am really impressed that somehow you are still focusing on finding a silver lining.
August 25, 2015 at 7:47 pm
I just no I did 10yr in the box…that was a sucky life…death is much better than that life…and i’m a long way from death!!!
August 25, 2015 at 7:57 pm
I’m glad you are out on the outside now. Everyone deserves a chance to start again. I hope you make the most of yours. Keep your chin up and never give up!
August 25, 2015 at 8:07 pm
Jdawg, Thank god for long distance. They not gonna have you for a long long long while!
August 25, 2015 at 7:10 pm
I feel you. I get tired too. Here’s a liitle
August 25, 2015 at 7:50 pm
August 25, 2015 at 7:56 pm
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