i think losing a loved one is the worst thing, when my best friend lost her son i thought she’d lose her mind…we all took it so hard…his illness/death blindsided us…be she survives and is really doing awesomely well. i seldom ever get depressed but do get angry with myself…and, out of rage, i’ve considered suicide which is easier to overcome perhaps…idk; i’m still here…so if you’re struggling i hope somebody’s invites you to a soda or something…i hope somebody reaches out and you reach back…live long and prosper
Hello dear reader(s)!
If you read Part 1, you know that in the last few years I have been through some stuff. That stuff has left me scarred, both physically and emotionally. Some of those scars will always be there. I lost the hearing in my left ear during treatment (which sucks, as a musician, I might add). I have cataracts in both eyes due to high doses of prednisone. I have kidney damage that is stable as of now. I have too much iron in my blood from over 200 red blood transfusions, and over 300 platelet transfusions. I have no B-cells which means I can’t get vaccinated with my new immune system and have to rely on an ever-shrinking herd-immunity. My neutrophils fluctuate to this day. I have some liver damage as well. Due to all of this, I also have issues absorbing certain vitamins and hormones. I…
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